Last week I was chatting with mom about this and that when she mentioned that she went to a “3elwyah†(although we are Sunni) and asked her to read quran for one of her kids (me) and see “what’s wrong with him?â€. She told my mom that I’m “ma7sood†(black eyed?) and I should go to “rugyah shar3yah†to get my dose of quran and to delete all the “7asad†files. While I’m not sure if would go or not, I definitely think I’m “ma7soodâ€.
Few years ago I used to have one hell of a job, the pay was extremely good for me and my parents couldn’t even believe it. Everything seemed magical to them, you can’t blame them … they were thinking “OMG our son who just graduated from high school actually made a career out of his hobby and he’s making some good money out of this†(keep in mind that I didn’t go to university or anything I just had a diploma in a totally non-relevant thing).
So whenever they got the chance to talk about me in front of our relatives or guests they would, sometimes they add few lies to spice things up and sometimes when they run out of stories they make up their own new ones, 3aaaadi “WE ARE PROUD OF YOU†… I used to tell them everything, EVERYTHING. I guess that what’s made them more excited and kept on telling their own versions of my success stories. I remember once when the added too much spice and ended with a very hot “salfah†… all you need to know is that they mentioned a seven digits number. I definitely was a 7asad material.
This year is my shitiest year ever (career wise). I got laid off from a start-up agency of a friend of mine and I’m freelancing ever since. I discovered I’m not a really good freelancer … I lack some key skills in order to become a successful freelancer, Motivation and Discipline … when you are working outside the agency structure you have to rely totally on yourself to do everything.
I know I used to have the motivation and discipline before, I’m just thinking “7asad†took them away or maybe it’s the lifestyle change I went thru (corporate sucker to independent freelancer). To be motivated I need people to bitch on me (account managers) and to get the much needed discipline I need some one to scare me every once in a while (Creative or Art Directors).
The Butter:
I gotta go to the “rugyah shar3yah†hoping that would work and I should finish my freelancing projects ASAP and get a job in an international agency or something (no local start-ups, ever).
Also, I didn’t know I can write posts this long.
P.S: Purg, STFU.